8th grade next year . . .

       okkk , so this week didn't actually go the way i planned it to . but eh its ok . so anyways , monday was evens , so I'm not really sure what happened on that day, but i know that period was in charge of ids this week . tuesday was odds , and it was also the day we cleaned up a101 . we cleaned out the office , and cleaned up the room . wednesday , was fun . but that was also a really bad day for me . no one except for angel knows why it was such a bad day for me . anyways , thursday during period i did some of this blog . it was also when i realized that i forgot my lunch . . . i was hungry lol . but yeaaah , and then taylor and chad were working on the graduation slideshow . and I'm just sitting alone because there is no one in this period that i can vent with , because the people that i want to vent about is their friends . . . so anyways , friday was fun . some of it at least . some people in my leadership class keep talking bad things about me , and i found out that they are saying even more bad things about me on friday . some people were defending me though , and thank you for that .

       highlight of my week would i found out things this week , would be tuesday . or maybe it was monday , and a little bit of wednesday . just a little bit . lol , it was either on monday or tuesday i got to hang out with some people that i hardly ever get to hang out with because I'm working . but I'm not going to talk about that because certain people don't like it when i talk about that certain someone . but lunch on wednesday was the best . it was funny , i couldn't stop laughing . and then after school , my brother brought some of his friends over , he has pretty cool friends , which is funny because i thought he didn't have friends , LOL jkks . but yeah , lunch on wednesday was funny too , but I'm not going to talk about that either because people say , "i talk about him too much" . whatever , i don't really care , i can talk about whoever i want guys . low light of my week would be wednesday too . and some of tuesday . bad thins happened on that day , for me at least . i didn't show my sadness because its too much to take . it sucks because i have to deal with the people that make me feel like this . i have to cooperate with them , but that doesn't mean i have to talk to them . i don't talk to them at all , i used to talk to them about everything , but i stopped . and now i don't even say good morning to them or hi to them once i walk into the door . and I've been coming late lately because I'm waking up late a lot , i don't set my alarm because i either forget or I'm so tired that when my alarm does go off , i just press ok , and fall back asleep , but when I'm not in the a101 , those certain people are talking bad things about me . I'm not trying to start any drama , I'm serious , I'm just saying that it hurts to know that they are saying all this mean stuff about me , when i don't say anything mean about them .

       lesson learned , people can betray you . no matter how much they meant to you . on tuesday and wednesday i found out bad things , things that made me want to just leave . but then i remember all the people that love me and all the people that care about me . i think the first day i found out things was on wednesday . I didn't like what i heard . but sometimes we just have to deal with those things , people are going to talk crap about you , and they're going to hurt you , no matter how good of a friend they were , trust me i should know . I'm going through that right now . it all started when i stopped talking to them because i wanted to hang out with some of my other friends . thats when they started talking about me , bad things . which is weird because i don't say anything bad about them , because they WERE my friends . note that i said WERE . i don't want to start any drama , it just hurts to know that they don't like me just because i "changed" . but in my opinion , I'm still the same person that i was when i came to this state . i'm still the same person i was 2 years ago . i probably did change , but i changed because i realized that people don't stay the same , so stop saying i changed ! I'm not the only person that changed you know ? everyone changes , good or bad , they're still the same person . it hurts to know my used to be best friends don't like me just because i "changed" . just because i like the people that i like . just because i wanted to have a chance to hang out with my other friends . i don't judge you just because you hang out with other people . i don't judge you just because you got closer to other people , but you didn't get closer to me . I'm not like that . i used to be like that , but i changed that , i changed for the better , not the worse . you may think i changed for the worse , but thats your opinion , and its ok . but you should just tell me yourself instead of having me find out from other people that you guys don't like me anymore . and sure I'm more sensitive now , but thats because you guys hurt me a lot , and i can't take it sometimes .

daynnaaa :)